This is my first post since completing NaNoWriMo on November 21st. This is also the first thing I’ve written since NaNo ended. I’ve had my eyes open about many things taking part this year, but when the final word count tallied and I received my winner’s badge, the only thing on which I could focus was how NaNoWriMo kicked my ass.
I don’t know if it was writing at an increased pace, writing every free moment I had, or just the emotions I found myself experiencing. But when I crossed the 50K mark, the only thing I could do was get up, walk to my bedroom and lay down. I won NaNo, yet I didn’t feel like a winner. I cranked out over 50 thousand words faster than I have ever done in the past, yet at that moment, looking at words was the last thing I wanted to do. For several days after writing my last word — that word being “darkness” in case I ever use that in a trivia contest — I avoided my laptop as if I owed it money.
Ultimately, I returned to writing. I ended the event a little over 65K by the time the 30th hit. And while I am taking off a couple of weeks to do things that don’t involve putting words to a page. I watched The Punisher on Netflix and I played video games. And while it felt good to do those things, I know I have a story to complete. Despite the physical and emotion toll working on my WIP took on me in November, I want to complete this project and move on to something else.
I am a glutton for punishment after all.
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